tomorrow night i'm gonna stream it live. 10pm. be there or be square.
google imaging "suicide victim"
why do I like this? what is wrong with me?

i think if I was gonna do it I'd jump off the catwalk during opening night.
THAT'D get their attention. ho ho.
haven't blogged in awhile. i don't know why. just.......
fuckign everybody stop talking

sigh.

from Wikipedia

i really know how she felt


from wikipedia:

Death

On Friday, September 16, 1932, Entwistle jumped from the "H" of the Hollywood sign (which then read "Hollywoodland"). Her body lay in the 100-foot ravine below until it was found two days later. Acting on an anonymous tip, a detective and two radio car officers found the body of a blonde-haired, blue-eyed woman who was moderately well-dressed. She remained unidentified until her uncle connected the description and the initials "P.E." on the suicide note in the newspapers with his niece's two-day absence.[19]

After identifying her body, Harold Entwistle filled in some of the blanks for authorities and the press. Entwistle was upset at not being able to impress the studios, and told her uncle that she was going to walk to a nearby drugstore and then visit friends. Instead, she made her way up the southern slope of Mount Lee, near her uncle's home, to the foot of the Hollywoodland sign. After placing her coat, shoes and purse containing the suicide note at the base of the sign, she made her way up a workman's ladder to the top of the "H".[19] The cause of death was listed by the coroner as "multiple fractures of the pelvis."[20]

Peg Entwistle's suicide note read:

"I am afraid, I am a coward. I am sorry for everything. If I had done this a long time ago, it would have saved a lot of pain. P.E."[21]

Her funeral was held in Hollywood and the body cremated. Her ashes were later sent to Glendale, Ohio for burial next to her father in Oak Hill Cemetery; her remains were interred on January 5, 1933.[22]

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AHHHHH!!!!

audition today after school. im so nervous I havent pooped in like two days. i know I am disGUSTing!!!!!!!!!!


wish me luck, y'all!

Katharine Hepburn



Today Orson said I look like her. i know he was trying to be a dick (i think he's gay -actually. he's big into musical theater and dancing and I know that's stereotypical, but i overheard someone say something about him kissing rebecca lampwick's little brother over vacation) but i dont care. i actually think K.H. is totes gorgeous, and she's also completely fierce. i wish i was more like her. rebecca actually reminds me of her a little bit, though of course she's a lot heavier. but i think rebecca's gorgeous, too. i don't know. i'm such a LEZBIAN.

suicide

"You know what Buddhists call suicide? A temporary solution to a permanent problem." haha. get it? because buddhists believe in reincarnation. i laughed.
how come sixty freakin people read my blog last night, and no one will talk to me at school?

sometimes i think if i had just one friend everything would be okay.


im so tired. i dont' think i'll go to school today.

Jimmy Stewart is my Guardian Angel


Love this movie.
Love this man.


don't you just wanna kiss his face?


sigh

also, Grace Kelly makes me die a little inside. cheezy i know but if I looked like her maybe life wouldn't be such a never ending misery.